Serenity

Here i am

2009-11-10T11:57:00.004+08:00

I cannot express the feeling i am having now into words.
Because i cannot express it out, it's killing me inside.
Suddenly, i feel claustrophobic. i cannot breathe.

I consoled you, listen to your rambles.
Tried to be understanding and talk from a neutral point of view.
But have you consider or even thought how much it is hurting me?

Last new year, new years two year ago, three years ago.....
Wont be any different from this coming one.

TC. Have fun.

A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.. And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you..

MJMJMJMJMJMJMJMJMJ

2009-07-12T17:40:00.004+08:00

Mahhjonggggg with Jas, Des and nerd yesterday at Des's place. Played till 5.30am and then we headed over to the nearest Mac's for breakfast. Been so long since i last stayed up so late to play MJ. LOL. It's funnnn!!!! The feeling is soooo nostalgic. :)

Was suppose to go to the arts festival yesterday. But it starting raining while we were walking so ended up we gave up. :(

WoW is down!! Hate itt!! :(

2009-07-12T17:31:00.004+08:00

Met up with the guys after many months. Miss the old times. LOL.
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Thanks for staying by me.
know it's stupid to just hang on to the phone and not talk.
But.............. Thanks for being there. :)

宇桐非 — 感动天感动地

2009-07-06T17:35:00.003+08:00

一开始我以为爱本来会很容易
所以没有经过允许就把你放心底
直到后来有一天你和他走在一起
我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己

以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息

Once upon a time....

2009-06-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

Two months have passed.
I am feeling better. A lot better.
Thanks for staying by my side, thanks for being patient, thanks. =)

One day, I'll look back with a smile on my face.
Thanks for entering into my life.
Memories will always be kept in me. :)
I'm leaving. Goodbye.

My heart is slowly mending...

Bitches~!

2009-06-21T05:24:00.006+08:00

Nerd bought WoW for MEEEEE!!!!! LOL.
Hope i can level faster!! =(

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Shopping with the girls and Aqua marine for dinner with hui.
Dropped cher and clara off at lucky plaza before heading over to Mandarin Hotel.
I was so stupid to parked at Marina Square! should have parked at the hotel itself. !!
Cuz we ended up walking sooooo very far!!!~!!! -.-'

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Met the bitches out for drinking last friday and i got drunk! LOL. Not dead drunk. But drunk.
Had fun! Been so long since i laugh so hard. Thanks girls! Hugs!!

Cam-Whoring~!

2009-06-11T04:17:00.035+08:00

Finally!! I took a really really long time to upload all the photos to blogspot.

We went for Rong's birthday celebration last week. Didn't know anyone. so we cam-whore all the way. Ended up, it is more like our birthday then Rong's birthday. hahaha. I wonder who's the genius that came up with multi-shots. We took hell alot of them! And that's one reason why i took so long to upload all the photos. Cause there's freaking lots of photosssss!!!

I miss Milo. =(

Saw a chihuahua at the BBQ. It looks exactly like Milo. Though Milo would be a lot smaller in size. But but............ It's so cute!!!!~!!! Everyone was saying that he got a stupid face. That's why he's sooo very cute! hahahaha. Milllooooooooooo!! *sob sob*

Multi-Shots of the crazy cow and me!

The status and weirdo.

Then it's the crazy cow's turn.(with Zoom)

Then it's back to the weirdo plus some interference of the crazy cow

Lastly, crazy cow and his best friend THE WEIRDO.

Crazy people! hahaha.

The four of us!~!

And the extra birthday boy. hahaha. opps. =x

Wonder why is he holding on to his crotch.

I totally understand what a love-hate relationship is.
The sparring couple!

This is super photos overloaded!!
Hahaha. And a near to wordless post. =)

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Popeye's is so much better than KFC!
After craving for soooooo long... I finally have it for dinner today!
Nerd was kind enough to accompany me to the airport for it. kekke.
Thanks for dinner and the ride home!

Sleeping now. Gotta wake up at 1pm. Going shopping!! FINALLY! After so long......
Hopefully i have some great catch! =)
Good night readers.

Boringggggg~

2009-06-05T20:31:00.003+08:00

One day........... I will have a chance to see the aurora.

Trying real hard to level up while waiting for nerd to come over.
Going for Rong's birthday celebration with Cher and Zach.
Spend my day playing the piano, play WoW, sending my bro to collect his car and watching Gossip Girl.
Boring Friday......
Hope i can force the four of them to take photos later. =)

Back to leveling up! =)

P.S. remain like that... =)

Beach Cabana and other random stuffs

2009-06-05T03:13:00.008+08:00

Chill out session with Shawn and Joyce yesterday. We went over to East coast for dinner, this place call Beach Cabana. Shawn was kind enough to come over and pick me from home, then pick joyce from work before heading to our destination. We reached there about 7 plus and i was starving! =( Since exams started, i've been eating a lot, now my stomach is bulging out already. =(

So anyway, baby ribs for Joyce and I, rib eye for Shawn. Their ribs are hard and the meat is dry and the worst part is it's so damn hard to cut!!! =( By the time i finish cutting and eating, I'm hungry again. =( Order fries and Topshell then we started catching up and cam whoring. =)
Chatted till 11pm before heading over to Joyce's place to play with Lolli, then Home Sweet Home.

Thanks Shawn for dinner and the ride home and CIGGIES!! haha. =)

I'm growing fatter day by day. =(
Can't even see my dimples when i smile already! =(
This's bad. I'll start my diet starting from Monday! So i still have 3 more days to eat!

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So... my exams are over and i went for training today. Two more trainings left before I officially start work! i hope i passed the training today. Customer scolded me for not being able to process his bets before the market close. He called like 30 seconds before the market close. And he called back to complain about me! kekke. He's suppose to win, but because I'm speaking really slowly, he can't place his bets on time! Opps... i didn't mean it... I'm just a trainee... kekke. =p Hope he wasn't too angry.

Think it has been a month since i last talked to you. Terence talk to me today over msn. And he said "I'm very sure he has loved you before and that's the most important thing."
One thing i've learnt. never ever be with a guy that had a 5/6/7/8/9 ...... years relationship. Because end of the day, you're just a rebound. No matter how well you treat them, you're just dirt to be wipe off once they get bored. Though it hurts so much, but I've accepted the facts. Hope you're genuinely happy hugging those girls, as what i heard. After all this while, I never really know you at all. Take care always. =)

Zach's Birthday Bash

2009-05-25T02:11:00.012+08:00

Took a cab over to nerd's place to pick him up at 3pm then we head down to Zach's place.
He organized a BBQ cum gathering session for his friends and at the same time celebrate his 24th.

Went to Tiong Baru Plaza to get some BBQ stuff before heading back to Zach's place. I was rather tired so, i forgot what really happen. haha. Nerd was nice enough to peel the prawns for me and i remember the cake being very sinful. Most of the time, we're either talking rubbish or stoning. haha.

The sickeningly sweet couple.

We got bored and started cam-whoring outside the toilet. =p

We chilled till 12plus before Wei Rong send Cher, Nerd and me home.

Thanks Rong. =)

P.S. i think i should stop blogging. =( either i have nothing to write or i am too lazy to put my thoughts into words. =(

Dead

2009-05-11T01:36:00.004+08:00

It happen again today. I wonder how long more can i take it.
I want everything to be like the past. How heartless can you get?

Feeling hopeless, helpless, useless, soul-less and ..... Can't think of any -less words.
Tears just keep rolling down......................
I hate myself for loving you.

You're a stranger to me. I no longer know you. No longer the one whom i fell in love with.
What happen in the middle? What happen to us?

If only i could turn back time.

Forbidden love

2009-05-07T10:12:00.003+08:00

I've have always thought no matter what we'll always pull through.
I always have faith in us.
Learning to care about your feelings, putting you in front, but end of the day, you said i was self- centered.
All along i thought a relationship is when two people come together and have a life together. Sharing problems and communicating.
No one is perfect in this world. I would never imagine you would say that you want to find a girl that is more compatible to you. That's like you. I can feel my heart breaking into pieces.
Someone once said, if there's one bad point you cannot accept about your partner, no matter how many good points he/she has is useless.
But you said, if you have any bad points why don't you try to minimize it?
Have you asked yourself what's yours?

I thought, you just don't love me that much and someday you will. But i never ever thought that you just want a girl that's like you so that you could settle down and start a family without the girl disturbing you at all. Whether or not it is me, it doesn't make any difference to you.

I am torn. Words from you pierce right through me. I don't know you anymore.

I'll change.

Close your eyes.

2009-04-30T13:32:00.005+08:00

MA assignment due today! went to school to hand in and headed back home. so tired!
I seriously need to sleep. But before doing that, i've got to finish up three articles, print out my HR assignment, watch one episode of GOSSIP GIRL! im so in love with this show!

we've finally decided on a model. now i cant wait to start out and launch the next collection! =)

Goodbye old love, Hello new love!

2009-04-30T01:24:00.003+08:00

Marketing and HR projects are due next week. we've only started with .......... mm....
the questions for HR and part A for marketing? exams in a month's time. shit.! so afraid im gonna fail. think i gotta start studying now. =( hate it when exams are coming. =(

went to watch X-men today. like the show! you should watch it too!

anyhoos, Got my advance 21st birthday present from mum and dad! =)
They change my car. =)

My old ride. that is my first car. never gave any problems before.even though i always forget to bring it to the service center. It's also big and comfy.

My new ride. =) My second car. i love it! but i think im too short =( gotta adjust the seat so front. =( it's big and comfy too. got the same feeling as the old one when i drive. only it is better in everything! though this is not the car that i really want. but i still love it!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the best birthday present ever! =)

thanks mum and dad.
i love you. =)

Mel's going taiwan to celebrate her bday. =))
lucky girl......
let's pray that my nice and lovely boyfriend still reads my blog.

how i wish i can celebrate my birthday in Finland.. i can see the aurora, play with huskies all day, sleep in igloo at night, skinny dip in the freezing lake then shiver back to the sauna, make a snowman, cuddle together and watch the snow falls.... etc etc...

That will be the second Best 21st birthday present someone can ever received. Right? kekke.

*please read this entry, ren*

P.S im gonna be so broke. petrol consumption is higher now. =(

Shawdows leading the way

2009-04-24T22:58:00.006+08:00

one thing i realise about myself..... i cannot take stress... =(
i'll be super grouchy.. come to think of it..... what's there to stress about?
Life is a beautiful thing that we should learn to enjoy. right?

but, without that something.. life wont be that beautiful anymore.
yes... it wont be that beautiful.

alright... im just talking nonsense. ignore me.

Today, shawna, cherlyn and i went for the sale at Toa Pahoy.
didnt know what sale is that. we just follow shawna. LOL.
And thanks to her........... we got alot of things for ourselves!
i spent like $235 on cosmetics and perfumes and body lotion.!

bought Ferragamo and anna sui body lotion plus perfume and MAKE UPSSS!!!
im so addicted to MAKE UPSSS!!! though i seldom wear them cuz im too lazy... but i just love to buy them!!... Seriously... i love to buy everything that i wont usually use. =( and i spend a bomb. dad refuses to pay my bill this month... im so broke. =( this sucks.

these are the things i bought. =) im so proud of it!!

thanks shawna!!!

side tracking..... Spend my friday watching gossip girl and playing restaurant city and trying my best to finish up my assignment. i've school tml. =( boring....................
think i'll just head to bed now! so tired. good nite!

Dangerously cute

2009-04-20T02:21:00.003+08:00

i've forsake my blog for a long time............. so long...........
Yesterday, went to royston's 21st bday celebration. saw alot of my secondary sch friends. it's been 7 years. we've all grown. they grow in height, i grow in size. =( i realised that im still that short! =( after all these years, i start to think what have i been doing? miss my grow spurt. =(

Happy 21st !

After the celebration, went prawning with chervonne, anthony, terence, ren and me! didnt take any photos. nowadays, my camera stays lying on my table. i stop bringing it out. cuz there's no one as enthu as me when taking photos. so i lose my excitement in taking photos. which im pretty sad about. =( Ren, you should be more enthu in taking photos. =( lol.

so... After prawning, i went over to rel's place to pass her the dress. one satisfied customer. ren drove me over. thanks ren. rel was complaining that i've not been blogging and bla bla bla.. so i deicded to write an entry to please her. hahaha. i'll update more often yeah!

today, ren went over sembawang to deliver two dresses to his fren. but i think they waited till they fall asleep. thanks ren! so sweet of you. anyway, i do not know who still read this pathetic blog. but i'll just advertise here too...

I've jus setup a blogshop. Http://fashology.livejournal.com do come and have a look. =)

anyhoos, ren has been an angel these few days. and i think i've been such a bitch to keep finding fault in him. im sorry. guess im still pms-ing. =( he's been really patient and he's willing to accompany me do the things i love. =) Thanks you for being my dispatch boy. love you. =)

tml i'll be having morning class. sigh.... and im still awake.... maybe i should get some sleep. good night.

E71 vs Curve8900

2009-03-29T09:05:00.004+08:00

which one?

The perfect morning.

2009-03-27T13:56:00.004+08:00

holidays are coming to an end...
lets see what have i done this term break,

met rel.
met mel and guys
ren bought L4D for me.
play L4D
work
play L4D
work
play L4D
work
celebrate ben's bday
work
play L4D
work
met cher for dinner
work
L4D
work
work
work
work

my holidas seems interesting.... lol.
anyway, im going to K.L on the 1st till 5th of april.
gonna miss 4days of lectures just for paint-ball and sunway lagoon. zzzz!
i'll try to take as many photos as possible.!!! =)

had not been meeting the schoolmates for a long time.
when school starts, we'll be crazy all over again! lol.
this semester, i'll try to get an A. or at least a B+..
NAH.... A sounds nicer!!
alright!!! i must get an A this sem!!!!!!!

gonna meet mel on monday for dinner. I WANT TO WATCH CONFESSION OF A SHOPAHOLIC!!!!!

City of illusions

2009-03-26T03:37:00.002+08:00

im tired. been working for the past two days.
and i injured myself today. =(
now my elbow hurts alot.

im feeling so hungry now.
shall go and grab a bite.

it's funny how people tend to take things for granted so easily.

Pan cake session.

2009-03-18T00:49:00.005+08:00

i've got so many things to post up. haha. since i decided not to delete my blog, i'll just dump all the overdue posts here.

many weeks bk, while preparing for exams, i went to zach's place to study with cherlyn.
erm.... it's actually for bbq lah. and we decided to make pancakes.
im trying to recall what really did happen.
but since it's so long ago, i kind of forgot already.

we had fun making pancakes though.

Brainwash time.

2009-03-17T20:37:00.003+08:00

WOOT! i can upload pictures again.!! hahaha..
i was thinking of deleting my blog when i saw my chatbox.
it looks like i have one very loyal reader! JO KOH!!! haha.
if that's the case, i've decided not to delete it and blog only for you huh...
i think you're the only one reading lor..

so, are you bringing me to eat jalan kayu's prata, baby?

2009-03-06T05:58:00.003+08:00

it's been so long since i update my blog. i wonder whether are there anyone still reading it.

anyway, im in the middle of exams only but i keep thinking where to go for my holidays.

anyway, i can't upload any photos.
i do not know why. but it's really irritating.
this is part of the reason i stop blogging.

cause i CANNOT upload photos. =(
but it seems like im the only one having this problem.
maybe there's just something wrong with my comp.

~

2009-02-17T04:09:00.004+08:00

went to watch defiance with the peeps.
it was a sucky show.
i was practically talking to cher the whole time.

anyway, this is a super outdated post too.
i'll try to blog on time.
been busy and lazy. haha.

no title yet.

2009-02-17T02:12:00.003+08:00

i just feel depress.
totally.

Hui's bday celebrations

2009-02-14T18:21:00.010+08:00

this is a super outdated post.

went for hui's birthday celebration at dragonfly.
before that, joyce, mel, me, ren and birthday boy met up for dinner at vivo.
i forgot the restaurant's name.

head down to dragonfly after tt.
actually i got nothing to write here.
as it's so long ago, i sort of forgot what happen already. haha.

so... enjoy the photos.

take one

take two

take three

take four

take one

take two

take three

take four

take one

take two

take three

take four

drunk birthday boy.

happy 29th birthday, hui.

Happy Valentine's day

2009-02-11T23:59:00.008+08:00

happy Valentine's day!!
it's been awhile since i update my blog.
i can't seem to upload photos from my desktop to my blog.
after trying for countless attempts, i gave up!!
maybe i'll try again tomorrow!

enjoy your day with your love ones! =)

Rebel

2009-01-30T02:59:00.006+08:00

Clubbing is fun with them around.
this is actually a very outdated post.
im super lazy to post up all the photos.
here are just some of it.

i think the whole outing,
cher, zach and me were just cam whoring all the way.
ren was forced to cam whore with us. haha.
cher had a new name for ren. hahahaha!
it's a really nice name.
i guess ren loves it.

so anyway, it's been quite awhile since we go out and club like that.
a break from studies. lol
there are just a few peeps missing.

ben was saying after new year we shall all go club again.
shall ask the rest out for a gathering.
the rest is actually just referring to gwen and gera.

for now, we'll just have a break.
we've all over spent this month.
sorry ren. =(
i'll try to help you save more k?

it's 3.14am, i duno what am i typing anymore.
bro bought guitar heroes.
im gonna sleep now, tml i'll wake up early to play.
after two weeks, i'll qie zach and greg. haha.
cher if you wana qie your bf, come crash my plc. i let you play whole day.
rent by the hour : say 70 times cabbage/hour
good deal huh. =p

so anyhoos, exams are coming.
presentation is on monday.
i've still not decide what to wear to present.
i'm feeling really scared already.
SH*T!

i cant wait for holidays.
shall buck up now and try to get all Bs.
tomorrow is biz stats, i'll concentrate in class!

Furniture shopping.

2009-01-28T02:58:00.010+08:00

enough said.
lazy to elaborate.
off to bed.
good night peeps.

Remember i'll still be here

2009-01-26T16:50:00.006+08:00

everything is so good now.
please don't take it away from me again.
im so happy being with you.
thank you for your patience.
kisses and hugs!
happy anni, chunky.
love you much.

anyway, happy chinese new year everyone.
may everyone have a happy and prosperous year ahead.
take more "ang baos"
win more money.

" HUAT ARH! "

My good friend.

2009-01-20T01:24:00.004+08:00

im always there for you when you need me.
you're always there for me when i need you.

but... you're so demanding in everything.
even as a friend.
im busy with school work.
my projects are all gonna due.

i find time to meet you to take the photos.
but you want everything your way.
you cannot compromise.
and when things don't go your way, you quarrel with me.
you can even use vulgarities on me.
you always complain that im really busy.
you think i wana be?
i hate doing projects,
why cant you be more understanding?

im tired of always quarrelling with you.
it don't hurt you, but it hurts me alot.
i treated you as my good friend.
i've always try to give you the things you expect.
but i can never reach your expectation.
have you ever thought maybe you expect too much?

forget it.
i don't wish to talk anymore.
here i am tearing and typing, there you are cursing and swearing at me.

i treasure you as a friend.
i've never expect anything from you.
i've always try to be there for you.
even in the middle of the night when the next day i've got lesson.

im really disappointed.
i duno what to say.
it just hurts.

Sugar fairy

2009-01-19T23:11:00.002+08:00

went to colour my hair today.
it didn't go that well at all.
i should have just stayed with agnes.
now i looked like a bloody ah lian.
my colour is so striking!!! =(
that's so bad! cry!

cant even see my highlights.
i think i've gotta go back to do. !!!!!!!! =(
maybe i'll just dye my hair black the next time.

Dragonfly.

2009-01-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

went dragonfly for shawn's celebration.
when we reached, he's like half gone alr. zZz
i've been spending alot recently.
shall cut down, starting from now!

i need to get a job.
those super flexible working time.

and im falling sick again.

Chinese new year is coming.
but i don't feel the mood at all?
no one is asking me to go chinatown shop.
why huh. =(

my brain isn't working.
shall stop typing here.

2009-01-13T18:53:00.001+08:00

i miss you so much.

Nobody's home

2009-01-12T11:26:00.002+08:00

i cant wait to get to school.
cherlyn is dancing for me today. =)

i've been feeling really bad.
and i've been running away from this bad feeling i have.
im afraid of the outcome.
i know what i want, i know what i need to do.
all that's left to be done is doing it.
now, im just waiting.
it sucks to wait.

the only thing that can draw my attention away when im at home, is to watch two and a half man.
i finished season2 yesterday.
today im gonna watch season3.

forced myself to work.
yeah. half the time, i duno what im doing.
but i shall just call it working.

i hope everything i do will be worthwhile.
and the results will be a happy one.

2009-01-11T20:40:00.002+08:00

i duno what the outcome is.
i hope it's not gonna be too hard on me and i'll be able to pull it off.

God! im dreading it.

Girly affair.

2009-01-11T14:27:00.002+08:00

i've gone back to the old hang out and chilled with the girls and guys.
miss the old times. =)

Will you marry me?

2009-01-07T20:36:00.008+08:00

today, i received a text from my bro.
it reads : "I propose to her liao. At lake tekapo."
I replied : "How's her reaction?"
He replied : "Happy,cry and say yes. Ha"

AWWWW!!! SO SWEET!!!

in future, i want someone to propose to me like that too!
if not, that poor person gotta redo his marriage proposal!

Lake tekapo is in New Zealand.
And he lied to her that it was a holiday to welcome the new year.
but actually it was a trip planned specially to propose to her.
and the trip was planned many months back.
everything was planned nicely with the help of his family member.
and one of them is me!
i lend him my ring, so that he can buy the wedding ring.
though it's a small part.
but I STILL HELPED OKAY!

and you guys should have a look at the wedding ring.
it's grade D and 1 carat. *SHINY SHINY* BLINDED~
addition of a necklace and pendant which consist of two hearts both 0.5 carat.

i guess mj is the happiest girl on earth.
if it's me. i'll feel the same too.

ENVIOUS!

if you all are wondering how lake tekapo looks like,
here are some photos of it.

Can you imagine?
you'll remember this forever!
i think i'll cry the whole day. super touched!
i've found myself a keeper.

*slap slap*

i talk like i was the one accepting the proposal.
i should wake up already.
it's beautiful isn't it?
i love it!
i would wana visit NZ someday.

no words can explain how beautiful and serene it is.
the more i look at it, the more i wana catch the snow mountains with my hands and never let it go.
i can just keep staring at the photos for hours.
tonight, im gonna dream about lake tekapo.

i have a new member in my family. =)
and i think this is the most interesting post i have ever written.

good night readers.

Towards the distant shore

2009-01-06T18:27:00.004+08:00

life for me since school started, which is just 2days ago:

wake up at 7am
eat breakfast
work till 12.30pm
prepare for school
reach school at 2pm
smoke
go lecture
finish at 5pm
go home eat dinner with dad
work till 9pm
sleep

interesting huh.

i've been sleeping at 9pm!
the earliest time i ever slept.
can't help it though.
really tired!
life in school is fun, otherwise it's boring.

i wana watch transporter 3!

Where the flowers bloom

2009-01-04T13:21:00.004+08:00

actually i'll rather he get drunk when im around than when im not around.
at least im there to take care of him right?

it's affecting me so much. i cannot breathe anymore.

Happy Birthday, mummy

2009-01-04T12:43:00.007+08:00

happy birthday mum.
we went regent hotel to have a small celebration for my mum's birthday.
food is alright. the only thing that i really love is the suckling pig. SOO DELICIOUS! =)

later gotta send my bro and mj to the airport.
ren's outstation.
my bro is going to NZ to propose to mj.
and three of them are going for two weeks.
life would be so boring at home.
guess it would be school, work and sleep once more.
with the occasional interruption of my lovely friends of course. =)

Happy new year, everyone

2009-01-03T02:44:00.005+08:00

happy new year everyone.
didn't celebrate new year this year.
it's just the two of us spending time together.
it's not really how i expected for our first new year together.
hmm.. but overall im still happy.

this year's new year resolution :

study hard and get Bs for all my modules ( i hope i can!)
save $4,000 for Hokkaido trip.
find a good gf for Greg =p

ren said if i get all Bs for sem 2 and 3.
he'll sponsor half of my hokkaido trip.
if i get all As, he'll sponsor the whole hokkaido trip.
As are hard to get, so i'll just aim for Bs.
than all i need to save is $2,000.
hahahahaha!!!!! yeah!
but first, i hope i can reach my goals.
if not, i'll just have to pay the trip myself. =(

i hope this is a good year for everyone.
one of my wish is that he will stop drinking.
i guess that wish will never be fulfill.
so i'll have an easier wish.
i wish that he knows his limits, understands that drinking is bad for health and never get drunk again.
this is a rather easy wish.

dear god, please fulfill it for me.
i promise to do more charity! =)

Gathering with the bitches again

2009-01-03T00:28:00.013+08:00

met up with everyone last week. didn't manage to see jo as i gotta rush to meet ren after our outing.
as usual, we had fun cam-whoring again.
took lotsa photos. =p

see you girls on the 11th. love ya. =)

Christmas eve~!

2008-12-30T05:42:00.011+08:00

i was having sore eyes on Christmas eve and was actually intending to just stay home.
but ended up, ren and me headed out to meet simon at 1am.
party world for us, they ordered a bottle of martell.
sang till 4am before we headed down to NANA.
Danny was there with his gf.
and i gotta know a bitch. (it is not danny's gf.)

and if you're thinking, yeah.. her name is call bitch. haha
alright im being bad. she's not important, so we'll just skip her and treat it as she didn't exist.

angie remembered me.
it's so sweet of her. =)

so, they drank and drank and drank and drank etc etc...
and i just stand around and stand around and stand around.
im the chauffeur for the night.

there's alot of drama going on. and one of it is ren got drunk and i gotta take care of him.
he spit everywhere in the car.
luckily, im not driving my car, if not i'll just kick him down and drive off.
he was slumped in a position that i do not know how to describe, and it makes me so hard to just drive properly.
after a long long long time, we finally got home.
and he vomited!

so embarrassing.
his brother's friends are all around and they all sit around and watch.

actually, i've no comment to this incident.
everytime i think of it, i feel like ..........
everytime as in, every now and then.
now and then = very frequently.

i hope i can forget this soon.
it's killing me.

photos before he got drunk.

wtf? haha

haha!!!~ no comments!

this video was secretly taken by ren.
i was thinking whether to post to up because im singing in it.
but that's not the main point.
the main point is, i wana let you guys hear the way he sings.haha.

anyone knows where to watch gossip girl online?

Christmas's eve's eve 23/12/08

2008-12-30T04:20:00.007+08:00

sorry for the late post, guys.
went to ren's company's chalet on the 23rd.
and there's a santa claus competition.
simon is one of them.
and he won the best dress.

of cuz he would win, with his big tummy and everything.
haha. he really looks like one.
there were zillions of people there and we squeezed in the tiny two story chalet.

so i'll just upload the videos i took for the competition.
it's quite boring initially, as they gotta wait for everyone to get ready.

Part one

Part two

Part three : Simon singing the navy song.
the background singer is DARREN! haha.
he seems so happy singing.
you guys should have seen the look on his face.
WAHAHAHA!

COMICAL SIA~!

anyway, we played mahjong till 7am in the morning.
im so freaking tired after that.
and i lost $60.

Merry Christmas people.

2008-12-28T06:59:00.002+08:00

my christmas present from ren.
thank you!

i love the leopard print.
when i show mel, she was like... arhhhhhhh!!!
SO NICE!

it's even crystalised.
but i dropped it and one of the crystal dropped out. =(

but it's super beautiful!
LOVE IT BIG TIME!

THANK YOU, REN !

Outing with the bitches AGAIN!

2008-12-28T06:43:00.005+08:00

we had our gathering again.
was suppose to have steamboat.
but ended up, we ate sakae sushi.

we had fun crapping around again.
and as usual, all the nice photos are at auntie's camera.
shall post it, once she send it to me. =)

Auntie's camera

2008-12-28T06:12:00.006+08:00

Singapore VS Vietnam

2008-12-28T05:38:00.009+08:00

there're so many outdated posts i need to post.

first of, merry belated christmas.
been staying at ren's place, so din get a chance to blog.

anyhoos, let's start with the semi finals of Singapore VS Vietnam.
i went to watch the match with my family and ren, he got the tickets for us.
thank you.

to my disappointment, Singapore lost.
there're over 55,000 people. it's so packed.
you can hear the cheers for Singapore from outside the stadium.

it's been a long time since Singapore have such an event where they bring all Singaporeans of different races together with the same goal.

it's a great experience and this is the first time i see the kallang wave!!!!!
SOOO BEAUTIFUL! =)

too bad i forgot to charge my camera. if not i'll video it down.
it's like the team work of 55,000 people, working together to build the wave and it travel round and round the whole stadium.
isn't it amazing!~!

but after the match, Singapore's fan fought with Vietnam's fan. ZZZZZ -.-'

but, it's really an experience.
i've always wanted to go and watch a soccer match. =)
thanks for bringing me there.

The bitches

2008-12-22T22:24:00.006+08:00

we finally met up as a whole group!
it's like ages since we do that.
the last time was i think last year's new year?
we went to her story, i think.
that was so long ago.

anyway, say hello to my bitches which consist of.

ah jo
auntie
ah long san
crystal
ah gwen
penny
pam
ME! =)

chilled at lido's mac cafe, catch up a bit on our current life and how it's treating us.
camwhore a lot as usual.

auntie brought along her Nikkon or Sony camera. those SLR camera.
and seriously, her camera skills are good! i feel so noob standing beside her.

after sitting there for many hours, we decided to head to Plaza Singapura.
ren came to join us at about 11pm to watch twilight with rel, crystal.
the rest of them headed home.

Introducing the lovebirds~

TAKE ONE

TAKE TWO

TAKE THREE

FAILED!

ARH!!!~~ FORGET IT!
WE SHALL USE AUNTIE'S CAMERA.

BELOW IS REL'S NEW TATTOO.
IT'S HALF DONE THOUGH.
BUT I FIND IT REALLY BEAUTIFUL!
OOOOO HOOOO!!~

anyway, after the movie, ren and i went to double o to meet his secondary frens.
so, im his driver for the night.
when we reach, i stand there like some idiot.

cannot drink = stiff body
stiff body = cannot dance
so....
cannot drink + cannot dance = total boredom

i saw jaslyn there! and i totally do not recognise her when she call me.
i was about to tell her that she got the wrong person.
when i suddenly remember it is her, i am looking at.

after double o, they wanted to go dragonfly and i drove them there.
so, the same goes for dragonfly.

cannot drink = stiff body
stiff body = cannot dance
so....
cannot drink + cannot dance = total boredom

but luckily enough i saw alot of frens and i sort of enjoy myself, besides the fact that some girl ..............................................................

we stayed till 5am and than i send ren and his friend back.

i've been thinking what auntie, jo and rel said to me.
thinking and thinking and thinking.
and i am still thinking and thinking and thinking.
haha. =p

see you bitches tomorrow. =)

Sleepless night

2008-12-18T06:00:00.004+08:00

went to granny's place. they say she'll be coming back at 2am - 4am.

now it's 6am. and im totally awake.

been working since i got back.

i think im still in a daze.

why did i not visited her more often?

life's really fragile.

treasure the people around you.

for one moment they're here. the next, they'll be gone.

dad must be real sad.

my heart breaks whenever i see him staring into space, deep in his thoughts.

grandma took care of me.

there're so many fond memories of her.

why did i not visited her more often?

i keep asking myself this question.

we ate durian at granny's place today.

hoping she would be around as that is her favourite food.

she must be really happy to see everyone gather together.

coming back from all parts of the world.

we sat around and talked about old times.

look at old photos and i realised i miss her so much.

she looked so young and beautiful then.

i learnt a lesson.

to treasure everyone around me.

to love and care.

maybe along the road of life, i lose myself.

i forgot about the lessons that granny used to teach me and got caught up with studies and partying. i forgot to look back and slow things down.

i would try to spend time with people that i care and care for me from now on.

i don't wish to look back in regrets no more.

granny, congratulations. u've become an angel.

stay happy in heaven.

we'll always think of you.

see you in xxx years time, if i manage to go heaven.

i love you.

Life is fragile

2008-12-16T17:09:00.003+08:00

just got back from my granny's wake.
i realised i got a bunch of really caring friends.
thanks people.

cried like crazy as usual.
now that she's really gone, my heart feel so heavy.
i believe i'll be alright after awhile.

thank you, those that consoled and came down to the wake.
i appreciate it a lot!

2008-12-16T03:25:00.001+08:00

thanks, greg and cher. =)
i really appreciate it alot.

loves..

2008-12-15T07:35:00.000+08:00

yesterday gera said something that really touched me.

" i'll be working tomorrow. but no matter what, i'll try my best to ask someone to replace me so that i can come to your grandma's wake."

thanks peeps. i really appreciate it a lot. =)

happier stuff

2008-12-14T05:58:00.004+08:00

i've decided to upload photos of Wednesday's steamboat with ren.
couldn't really sleep.
now that im home, i feel even more lost.
the two days i've been staying at ren's place, he's been keeping me company.
but he's sailing off in maybe 2hrs time. so i've got no choice but to go home.

maybe i should just get some sleep.

Farewell

2008-12-14T01:14:00.004+08:00

grandma passed away yesterday.
that's the first message i saw when i woke up.
ren was really nice to accompany me.
though it hurts that she's no longer here.
but at least i know that she's no longer in pain.
ren's family are the best family anyone could find.
his mum came up to console me. and they even gave $100 for granny's condolence money.
thanks auntie and uncle.
ren gave $50 and the best thing he did was to stay by me.
i think he knows that im sad, though i didn't show out.
thank you so much, ren.

gotta sleep. tml gonna stay over at the wake. =(

i love you granny.
take care of yourself in heaven.
rest in peace.

Colours in my mind

2008-12-10T04:00:00.003+08:00

i had a tedious day.
woke up at three in the afternoon cuz i slept at 10 in the morning.
and guess what im doing all the way?
as usual~ WORKING!
im totally not enjoying my holidays. =(

here's a list of what i did today.

picked Chantel up from Marriott
pick mom up from funan
head to the airport to pick aunt crystal and claudia up
went to hougang's hong kong cafe to eat
send them back to the uncle's place
send mom home
met the gang

i drove till my butt aches.
lose the way a couple of times and i finally met up with the gang at 11pm
chilled till 1.30.
and i've caught a red bomb.!
Ben's holding his wedding next thursday.
we're all discussing about it. lol.
finally! after 7 years of dating.

CONGRATS OLD MAN.

this means he wont be able to join us so often anymore.
have not been meeting the gang up for a long long long long long long time. i miss the times we had!
and i finally able to meet mel up after so long.
she's a kuku that wont miss people except ............. kekke. =p
ger.. i love you and he's an ass! hehe.
but if he can bring you happiness, i'll learn to love him too. bleahz.
that's cheesy.

the only lazy bum who didn't come is MR LAUDRICK CHEN.
this fellow went Genting to gamble.

digressing.....

tml i'll be finally able to eat steamboat.
after so long i manage to find someone to eat with me. =(
poor me.

my partner had been really nice, answering all the emails and planning everything.
i feel that i have not been doing anything.
sorry partner. but you cannot demote me. =p
if at any point of time you're unhappy, vent it on our worker please.
haha. i'll do some work tomorrow.
so for the mean time, just vent it out on the worker alright. =)))

talking about that, i've not seen my crazy peeps for quite awhile.
Will be organising an outing soon.
but no drinking please.
Christmas is coming. im so broke.
ness and gwen's birthday are coming too. sh*t.
oh..... and ben's wedding!
man..... i'll just eat grass and work like hell this month.
when is dad coming back? -.-'

enough of complaining.
time to get some rest.
got to wake up early later.

gera and gwen, you're being missed. =p

2008-12-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

goodbye chel.

nuggets, instant noddles and nothing else

2008-12-08T03:34:00.002+08:00

i am stuck at home with no car and i am starving.
ordering Mac's not a good idea.

first. i would have to wait for a frigging 1 hour.
by the time my food arrive, i would most likely be full.

second. with the amount of oil that's in my food.
i think i would have to run an extra 1 hour on the treadmill which i am not willing to do so.

third. i've been eating lots of mac's and im quite sick of it.
so i should take a break for one week before eating mac's again.

now, all that's left for me is nuggets and instant noodles.
im watching travel and living.
they're showing christmas foods. YUMMY! i want to eat turkey for christmas! =)
alright.. my saliva is dripping.

im so bored! super duper bored.
lousy sunday i have.
i didn't go for the mj session in the end.
as mel's princess haven sleep.

Dear god

2008-12-08T01:52:00.001+08:00

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Spin the record, baby

2008-12-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

today, i stayed home the whole day doing articles.
maybe i should go play mj with the rest later.
tml's a public holiday.
i hate your job.
simply hate it.
we don't celebrate festivals like how every couple celebrates.
i bet they're gonna take you away on Christmas day and new year day.

yesterday, i saw this documentary on SOP either on Guantanamo bay or adu gra.. something.
i forget how to spell it. it's really interesting.
about how the American torture the Iraq people and the conspiracy and stuff.
i watch halfway and then went to work. going to rent it and watch. =)

i should go read some articles now.
bye people.

your face

2008-12-07T03:32:00.001+08:00

I heard a song tonight on the radio
Another girl sings about a boy

She sees his face in every space,
Every room and I know
That if I turn around you won't be there
If I close my eyes will you be there?

I don't want to lose your face
And I don't want to wake up one day and not remember what time erased
I don't want to turn around
Cause I'm not scared of what love gave me and took away
And I don't want to lose your face

I've got a picture of you in my bedroom
And I hope it never falls

I hope I never lose that feeling
I used to get when you called
And then I wondered to myself
Who were you, where are you
Were you ever here at all

That girl in the song had it so good
I wish I could close my eyes and see you
I wish the sky had your face
And the oceans had your eyes
And the sunset had your lips
And I had you

I don't wanna lose your face
I don't wanna turn around

bolt~!

2008-12-07T03:21:00.003+08:00

meet rel in town today.
greg and cherlyn came to look for me.
i made a new fren today. =)

we watched bolt.
and i cried. as usual.
the show is freaking nice.
so touching.

someone said : somewhere along the way, you lose the smile you once had.

photobooking

2008-12-07T03:03:00.003+08:00

goodnight.

Pointless

2008-12-06T18:19:00.003+08:00

Everyone is saying that i am growing thinner and thinner and thinner and thinner and thinner....

And people started to think i'm either affected by my r/s or my exams.
they started to tell me not to take things too hard on myself.
now i feel like im having depression. -.-'

people.. im not having depression and im totally not anorexic. =)
so.. don't worry alright.
thanks for caring. =)

i spend three days two nights at ren's place.
won't be meeting him during the weekends.
nothing much to blog about.

was thinking of staying home today.
but rel's been really sad and i've not met mel up for the longest time.
so i'll jus drop by town and catch up with them. =)

lazy was the word.
you're lazy.
you killed me.

Its raining man!

2008-12-04T15:56:00.002+08:00

it raining, its pouring.......................
was suppose to go to the bird park today.

but it rained!
so we're stranded at home.

Ren's playing dota as usual, and i am reading articles.
maybe i should start my work.

argh... boring... lalalalalalala................................

Daydreaming

2008-12-03T02:32:00.002+08:00

It's 2.34am and i still can't get to sleep.
tomorrow i am meeting ren at 11am. provided he did not fly his aeroplane AGAIN.

im excited that im gonna see him.
it's always like that.
like we're dating.
and he just sits around and feels that we're an overdued couple and once in a while fly some airplanes on me.
this sucks.

i still cannot straighten out my feelings.
sometimes it's just so overwhelming that i personally feel that i am suffocating myself and maybe him.

what's wrong with me?
i've been asking myself this question forever.
but i simply can't get the answer.
i shall just let it dangle there in the meantime.

now, i should go do mask.
anyway, im gonna meet him tomorrow.
so, just be a little prettier won't do me any harm. =)

can't wait to see him. =)
nitey readers.

2008-12-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

what you said touched me alot.
i bet i will never have it.

if only...............................