i miss you so much.

Nobody's home

i cant wait to get to school.
cherlyn is dancing for me today. =)


i've been feeling really bad.
and i've been running away from this bad feeling i have.
im afraid of the outcome.
i know what i want, i know what i need to do.
all that's left to be done is doing it.
now, im just waiting.
it sucks to wait.

the only thing that can draw my attention away when im at home, is to watch two and a half man.
i finished season2 yesterday.
today im gonna watch season3.

forced myself to work.
yeah. half the time, i duno what im doing.
but i shall just call it working.

i hope everything i do will be worthwhile.
and the results will be a happy one.

i duno what the outcome is.
i hope it's not gonna be too hard on me and i'll be able to pull it off.

God! im dreading it.

Girly affair.

i've gone back to the old hang out and chilled with the girls and guys.
miss the old times. =)

Will you marry me?

today, i received a text from my bro.
it reads : "I propose to her liao. At lake tekapo."
I replied : "How's her reaction?"
He replied : "Happy,cry and say yes. Ha"

AWWWW!!! SO SWEET!!!

in future, i want someone to propose to me like that too!
if not, that poor person gotta redo his marriage proposal!

Lake tekapo is in New Zealand.
And he lied to her that it was a holiday to welcome the new year.
but actually it was a trip planned specially to propose to her.
and the trip was planned many months back.
everything was planned nicely with the help of his family member.
and one of them is me!
i lend him my ring, so that he can buy the wedding ring.
though it's a small part.
but I STILL HELPED OKAY!

and you guys should have a look at the wedding ring.
it's grade D and 1 carat. *SHINY SHINY* BLINDED~
addition of a necklace and pendant which consist of two hearts both 0.5 carat.

i guess mj is the happiest girl on earth.
if it's me. i'll feel the same too.

ENVIOUS!

if you all are wondering how lake tekapo looks like,
here are some photos of it.

Can you imagine?
you'll remember this forever!
i think i'll cry the whole day. super touched!
i've found myself a keeper.

*slap slap*

i talk like i was the one accepting the proposal.
i should wake up already.
it's beautiful isn't it?
i love it!
i would wana visit NZ someday.

no words can explain how beautiful and serene it is.
the more i look at it, the more i wana catch the snow mountains with my hands and never let it go.
i can just keep staring at the photos for hours.
tonight, im gonna dream about lake tekapo.

i have a new member in my family. =)
and i think this is the most interesting post i have ever written.

good night readers.

Towards the distant shore

life for me since school started, which is just 2days ago:

• wake up at 7am
• eat breakfast
• work till 12.30pm
• prepare for school
• reach school at 2pm
• smoke
• go lecture
• finish at 5pm
• go home eat dinner with dad
• work till 9pm
• sleep

interesting huh.

i've been sleeping at 9pm!
the earliest time i ever slept.
can't help it though.
really tired!
life in school is fun, otherwise it's boring.

i wana watch transporter 3!

Where the flowers bloom

actually i'll rather he get drunk when im around than when im not around.
at least im there to take care of him right?







it's affecting me so much. i cannot breathe anymore.